I officially dislike meeting grown ups who are EXTREMELY conservative for the very first time. No matter what why you twist it, you still seem like you have a stick up your butt.

The whole Man Law thing makes me think. Is it true that men are required to pee at the furthest stall from each other at all times? Well, I know the answer to that. After sitting at my Home Teachers apartment for 5 + Hours the truth was revealed. That, and the fact that girls are marked territory, like a fire hydgrent or a tree. Until that man has moved on, she is off limits. Oh how I love being compared to a tree.

I love talking. Do we have to sit and watch a movie? Do we have to go do wild and crazy things all the time? NO. We don’t, because we can talk, and talk about amazing things, interesting things. Things that truly matter. 

A friend of mine has the best goal list ever. EVER. I commend him for his efforts, and wish him luck with all of his future goals that have yet to be accomplished. It is probably the coolest thing I have ever seen. PERIOD.

Remember when you were little and you would go play outside. It didn’t matter if anything was happening, or if there were other kids outside, you always found something to do. You would make mud pies, make an imaginary race track with your bike, go hunting for lizards, or just sit outside. I want to do that again. I have the time… ha (SAD)

I want to be in school. I need to be in school. It is so important to me.

I want you to know that I am proud of you. You will do great things. You will open spiritual doors to people who have been locked away for ages. You will open your heart and give your all and be the best you can possibly be. I am so glad you decided to serve the lord. You made a good choice.

You are intelligent, caring, inspiring, ready, courageous, and without a doubt, loving. Remember to always give of yourself to others. Christ did not create us to gain & not give. He gave us heart that we might gain strength, earn wisdom, and expand our knowledge, to our fellow brothers and sisters. So that one day, we might all return to him. You can’t take your material objects with you to heaven. But you most surely can take your knowledge. LEARN do not hold back, when you teach others you teach yourself. All those years of Sunday school teachers and sacrament talks, when they say the talk was meant more for them then us, they meant it. Of course the people you teach will learn, but it takes time to gain a testimony so solid it will not break. You will continue to build that testimony your entire life. But this is a chance to have it grow expansively.

I know that this gospel is true. It gets me through every single day. I know that Joseph Smith saw God the Father and his Son Jesus Christ. That he restored this church and translated the Book of Mormon. The Book of Mormon is true. I have a testimony of that, eternal families, genealogy, and the temple.

Pressure is what get him there.

Want is what makes the pressure to hard to bare.

Need is what starts the want.

Love is what starts the need.

Even through the most pain and endurance, Love & Humility connect. Leaving LOVE as One Eternal Round.

Love has its own seasons. It has times when the seasons run into each other, overlapping, and making it hard to see things for what they really are. You might still feel cold in the middle of summer while everyone is taking a swim. You might take a leap into a cool flowing stream, when others think it is frozen within. Either way you live how you want to live. You swim when it’s time you bundle up when its too cold to move, and you always keep an eye out for stormy weather ahead.

Or at least you should…

It was my second demo today. BLAH

I need recommendations for the Logan area. Or, I just need a new job. It’s only my second day and I am pissed. I probably should see what happens with it.

I’m not in a happy mood today. I want to see JANE! She has been gone since, forever. Seriously I don’t even remember the last day I saw her. 

Erin is taking her engagements today… and I am going to the mall in a minute to see if I can find some dress pants. 

I slept last night, but I am still tired.

I really want to eat pizza or food from a real restaurant right now. Not Eggo’s or toast or cereal or cookies or ice cream. But, pizza. I want FIREHOUSE! So so bad. With one of those delicious salads.

Ok so I’m upset today and I’m not sure why. It just happened like 2 minutes ago.

WHATEVER.

You could ask me to take a picture with someone, jump in the dam, change something in my life, not eat chocolate (please don’t say that!), anything you and your creative mind comes up with. Then, for the next little while I will do those things. I will list your requests on my sidebar and cross them off when I am through with them. I will also blog about my experience and take pictures if necessary. There is no limit to the amount of things you can ask me to do, just make them a little realistic! Ok?

Example:

The guy who doesn’t know how to control what comes out of his mouth, his name is Bert. Bert sees an old friend outside of the cemetery. She is sitting on the sidewalk crying. Bert comes up and says… Someone die? She sobs out her answer.. then he goes on without missing a beat. Death is whatever… you will forget about them soon, you look horrible when you cry, you should stop. It was my brother says the girl in astonishment. Your brother was a jerk to me, but he was cool sometimes too.

Nice Bert, nice. Could you have been a little more sensitive to the fact that there was a death in the family. Oh and could you remember the age-old rule that if you have nothing nice to say, to say nothing at all. Then there is always just staying quiet all the time, until you observe the world for what it is and realize that females are a mystery. We are! We are a mystery. If we don’t wear our emotions on our sleeves we are seen as cold hearted and witch. If we share our lives openly, we get the rep for being a drama queen. Then there are the normal girls who keep what they need to keep, to themselves, and what they can share with everyone else. Those are the girls that are affected by this oblivious male. This is just one type of many. Only one situation of millions. But, truly it happens everyday. I’m not saying every girl needs sensitivity and understanding, because some women could care less. I am just saying that I WOULD-

BE PREPARED… VERY SOON …. there is a very exciting post coming up!

Yep you read that correctly. The girl who has been turned down, not responded to, and totally killed has been offered a job. I will be selling CUTCO Cutlery. So here is how it all went down. I went in to have an interview, spur of the moment, this morning at 11. I stayed at the appointment for about an hour learning about Vector, and CUTCO. The interviewer, Jennifer was the cutest girl ever! She was so happy and energetic and positive. She told us all that by the end of the day she would make her decision and give us a call. (Which was a relief with all my no call backs) After she spoke to us about all the details she pulled us in small groups into her office to ask us some more personal questions. I went in with two other people and we all gave her our very professional answers. Then, the clouds parted and she asked me to stay so that she could talk to me more for a little bit longer. At that point I was biting my nails in anxiety, hoping and praying that this was a good thing. She asked me if I was a hardworker and I told her yes, of course I am. My Dad taught me to be a hardworker and be the best person I could be, and to never quit. Then after a few SECONDS she stopped and said something to the extent of…

” I can tell you are hardworking and that you are a positive person, I could tell from the minute I saw you. I don’t want to wait till later to call. I want to offer you the job right here, right now.”

Then of course I did a quiet scream and accepted!!! I am so excited to start training tomorrow!!! YAY!

Anyone else have any good news??

The feeling of my heart. What color is your heart today? – RED

Red, like fire. The kind of fire that burns bright red not orange.

How do you cope when things seem to be stuck.

 You can’t escape but you can go anywhere.

Hows that for a proposition?

Dear Shelby,

This is frustration. Do you remember me? I was with you a couple of weeks ago when you were trying to get to where you are now. I just wanted to leave you a gift on your doorstep. It is a really awesome gift. The kind that only you can have. This is how it works, you get to be frustrated, but on top of that… You can do whatever you want! All day, everyday. Isn’t that amazing? Is there a catch? No Way!!

Fredrico Frustration

Dear Shelby Lou,

This is truth. Frustration was lying. There is ALWAYS a catch.

Remember when he said that you could do whatever you wanted? 

Well, he wasn’t lying.

He just forgot to mention that you can do whatever you want… Where you are right now. You can’t leave. EVER. So, just remember that he lied.

Yours “TRULY”

Trust Truth

Dear #2,890,999,189,174,

Due to the lack of harmony and peace in your life you have been skipped on this loading of the Love Boat & Company. Thank you for your application. Please apply again soon! We know the process is long and heartbreaking, but it is worth it in the end!

Relationship & Facebook Changing Status Corp.

Dearest Daughter,

I love you and always will. I know it’s hard but I really want you to make it back to me.

Hang in there.

Love,

Heavenly Father

Goodness. I feel like things are just stuck.

Some days I really wish I could be a wanderer. Someone who takes off and goes to Spain, or Brazil and just meanders around looking at old ruins and learning the language from the people. Sleeping in hostales and eating fruit from trees and drinking water from rivers. I don’t want to be a barbarian, I just want to be someone who is at a whim. Someone who is running in zigzag lines, instead of this huge circle that I seem to stay in course with. I imagine sun soaked trees, cobble stoned streets, brick buildings, and clay houses. Rivers running wild, and side-street markets. Asking for a mango and getting an exotic fruit, but loving every minute of it. Walking into old catholic churches and feeling the weather worn walls. Catching up with culture, and learning new things. Learning about peoples lives, their history how they live, how their ancestors lived. Where they are, where they are going, where they have been. Looking into someones eyes and seeing a deep enriching history of the battle between war and peace. Seeing the glimpse of hope in a young girls eyes because she knows how far her own life and person can take her.

Oh how glorious it would be. To be able to study the people, live their way, and understand the endless possibilities and happiness their culture brings. From how it effects their economy, politics, religion and other things that can be affecting people of different cultures spanning the entire globe.

This what I want to do. I want to study people, I want to understand history, make sense of things, walk into a museum and know so much about something that it is hard to leave. Maybe my ideas will change in a year, but for now. This is where I stand.